to forget

I do not exist
if I could write
would have engraved my heart here
Look around
how ridiculous we are
wars and business
destroyer bubbles
contemporary dictators
countries and nations
religions and marketing

pain from our head
my mouth is filled with our waste
degraded willingness selflessness
I try to be disappeared
avoiding meeting with the Hvil
more silence
infinite loneliness
being hermit somewhere
sleeping on the ground
eating less
sleeping a couple of hours
reading 
forget about you

I know
escaping is untrendy
I did not find any other way
The Internet is a shit ocean
networking is outdated
talking is useless
hatred is ridiculous
battle is cruel
being successful is pathetic
love is painful
science is hopeful
but I do not have more hope.

I do not want to exist
so I hide
committing suicide would be time wasting
because life is beautiful
nature is a miracle
I want to see the clouds
I want to breathe and touch trees
dance with the Sun at dawn
running early morning
being completely alone
and avoid humans
as this level of civilization
is just a pass, where
I had never wanted to live.